I’ve been doing the journey between London and Barcelona at least twice a year since 2009, once in the spring, once in the fall to visit my parents who live just outside Barcelona along the coast.
In 2020 all of that stopped thanks to the global pandemic and like many, i got to work on personal projects. But there was a problem, I don’t do deep, meaningful personal projects so I enrolled to a diploma on art photography during the second lockdown to learn more about personal projects.
There I learned that I have never been good at putting my emotions into my photography. My personal work is not founded on trauma, pain or any experience that has caused emotional damage. In fact, I find it incredibly difficult to express my emotions creative and artistically. I also find it hard to relate, therefore comprehend the work of photographers whose work is based on emotional pain.
Maybe this is caused by my nihilistic way of thinking believing that life, the world and the universe have more important problems than my own making my thoughts and feelings so insignificant that they’re not worthy of any artistic expression.
Thanks to the assignments and the work we studied I was able to quiet these nihilistic thoughts and get to work on a project based on the pain and vulnerability that the distance during the pandemic brought in many of us.
Stunning work! Wonderful post about how you have grown as a photographer!
Good work, I like it!